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I was working as an artist at the time. I had a small production jewelry business, but I wanted to become a designer and make one of a kind or limited edition pieces. I worked really hard at it. I see now that my time as an artist served as a training ground that helped me connect with my intuition.
For years I’d had a morning routine of stream of consciousness journaling. It was affirmative prayer, in writing. I also meditated. The focus was on my own healing and personal growth. Then one day something different happened. As I wrote, I literally started hearing words in my ear. The words were very clear, as though they were being dictated. It felt like they were coming from above. I wrote them down as fast as I could, without questioning what they meant. It seemed obvious that the thing to do was just keep writing, without stopping, so I did.
The only goal of my practice had been a deeper connection with the divine and the experience took me completely by surprise. What came through was completely different than anything I'd ever written myself. It was obviously from a much higher place. For the next couple months, more writings kept spontaneously coming through. They were incredibly sacred, beautiful, pure, and uplifting, unlike anything I’d ever written before. When I showed the writing to my then husband and told him what was happening, he was blown away, too. It was clear to him, too, that something unusual was taking place.
As the writing was taking place, the energy vibrated like electricity. I felt like I was being lifted several feet off the ground. The energy was bigger and more powerful than words can describe. Exponentially beyond nuclear. Yet so sweet and loving.
The feeling was of ecstasy, joy, wonder, awe and amazement. Suddenly I knew, saw and understood things far beyond my limited individual perspective. I knew I had accessed my higher self and through it was connecting to the incredible, unlimited energy of the divine. It's the divine energy we all have within, and that we're all part of. I saw firsthand that we really do have so much more power available to us than most of us realize.
The intelligent energy provided wisdom, insight and guidance that was personally relevant, and universally applicable. There I was, amazed at having face to face direct contact with God, or Goddess, as I referred to Her. After all the years of pure intention and devotion, endeavoring to connect, there She was talking back to me, loud and unmistakably clear. I felt the divine presence all around me, at all times.
I’d get a nudge to sit down and write or draw, and more would come through. Each day the connection became stronger and more amplified. After a few days the voice started speaking through me, as well. The guidance we received about various details of our life was unerring.
I started to see auras and perceive energies all around me. The color of peoples’ energy fields told me what was going on in their life, whether their energy was clear or blocked, where they were carrying old, unresolved hurt, and how to help them. Suddenly, I was able to peer beneath the surface and understand the deeper meaning of things. I felt expansive love and goodwill for all. I'd always been pretty perceptive, but I didn't see energy or have the same direct contact. This was/is a whole different level.
I had no control of it, the energy would just show up and start coming through. I didn’t know exactly what it was all about, but I knew I had connected with something much larger. I asked the energy what it was. It said we could call it Brilliant White Light, that it was a divine feminine aspect of the Holy Spirit.
The experience continued until March. My sight had been opened wide. I knew more and saw more. Afterward, I really wanted to resume my pursuit of being an artist, make jewelry, just go back to my old life. But once my lens into subtle energies and other dimensions had opened I could not shut it down. My life had been irrevocably altered. I couldn't go back to a mundane existence.
I received the message "Become a spiritual teacher". "No way" I said "You already have enough of those". The prompting continued.
I saw the good that could be done by using the energy. I knew I was supposed to be using my abilities to help others. About a year later I gave in and started my energy healing practice. Indeed, the Goddess knew best. I'm vastly better at being a healer than I ever was at being an artist and it's more fulfilling. It's a huge honor to be part of peoples' lives and help them accomplish their goals.
I first turned to meditation back in the 90’s, hoping to cure a mysterious illness. I was having frequent episodes of utter exhaustion. I’d feel toxic, bloated, icky sticky all over. The frontal lobe of my brain felt like it was full of cotton and burning. The episodes would last for days. Eventually it would go away, I’d be o.k. for a few days, and then it would happen again. I’d been to numerous doctors, both conventional and alternative. One labeled it chronic fatigue. None of their treatments worked. I decided my only hope was to figure out how to heal myself using that mind body connection I’d heard about. I started reading self-help books and meditating.
Around that time I was introduced to stream of consciousness journaling and to New Thought. The stream of consciousness process consisted of writing three pages without stopping of whatever came to mind. The idea was to clear the mind of its small, superficial, neurotic preoccupations in order to get to a deeper level of focus and creativity.
New Thought philosophy states that we are unlimited beings. The divine presence is within. Love, joy, abundance and health are our natural state. Masters such as Jesus and Buddha are viewed as individuals who embodied the potential that is within us all. We’re encouraged to follow their example.
New Thought also teaches that everything your soul desires already exists in the invisible. One of the tools we can use to create our desire is affirmative prayer. Affirmative prayer means aligning yourself with your desire by imagining what it will feel like to have it. It's creating a vision so clear you can almost touch it.
The universe operates under the law of magnetic attraction. Like energy attracts like energy. Affirming that your desire has already come to pass, giving thanks, feeling and behaving as though it’s already happened, puts you on the same frequency as your desire and allows you to attract it. The biggest part of the work is in clarifying your desire and releasing fear, doubt and whatever blocks that stand in the way.
My journaling morphed into written prayer to the divine within. The journaling helped me reach inside and begin to heal emotionally and physically. I’d been doing the practices for about eight years when the mystical experience took me by surprise.
I experienced firsthand how body, mind and spirit are one. Complete healing takes place when we address all three. That’s the reason this work is so fast and effective.